PERMANENT CORNER

The past couple of weeks were impeccable. If you know me, you know that Hawaii is a place of almost spiritual significance to me. But while Hawaii occupies a permanent corner in the back of my heart and mind, it’s not exactly the kind of place you can just, like, pop over to, you know? So, I have double the average amount of gratitude every time I get to return.

For two weeks, I didn’t have to think about my cancer or my upcoming treatment. I was able to enjoy my family and the beauty that enveloped us, share stories and laughter, and my heart was truly filled up. I love how God always knows just what we need. I mean, He knew months ago, when we were planning our vacation, that I would be diagnosed with cancer just a few weeks shy of our departure. I believe He knew and tediously planned my getaway…my temporary escape from reality. He also knows that I’m going to be very sick and weak pretty soon. I won’t be able to do much of anything. Which is a huge bummer. Being as independent as I am, this will be a huge adjustment for me…for us all. I am going to have to completely rely on my husband and family for any needs I might have, so the vacation was as equally as important for them as it was for me.

I’ve had some ups and downs in this journey thus far, and I know there will be many more to come. My faith, fortunately, has not wavered. God is the great physician, and for that I’m immensely blessed. He’s here with me now, will be with me during surgery and the treatments thereafter, and will cross the finish line of remission right beside me.

Philippians 4:19-20 (Message Version)

“You can be sure that God will take care of everything you need, his generosity exceeding even yours in the glory that pours from Jesus. Our God and Father abounds in glory that just pours out into eternity.”