Thursday, August 2, 2012

ch-ch-changes

Do you ever sit back and find yourself going through a transformation? I think I’m in a bit of one. I say “a bit,” because I am taking things slowly, instead of speeding full throttle into change. Still, I can’t deny that certain situations and people have been put in my life at a time when I am ready to be different, and while it is good — I know this — it’s unsettling too.

You may ask how I know I’m undergoing a fundamental shift, and I can tell you it’s how you know when you are hungry or cold or breathing. It’s biological almost. Something budding in the core of yourself. And while you’re aware it’s there, you’re unsure how it took root.

But it’s happening — right now — and I’m grateful for it.

Who surrounds you? Supportive, loving, constructive people? Or passive aggressive sorts? Gossipers? Status-seekers? Maybe you just don’t feel “right” with your old friends and/or acquaintances anymore. If you’re starting to see that you’re not feeling a synergistic connection with those you spend the most time with, you might be ready to move on and allow more positive people in your life. The length of time you’ve known someone doesn’t justify keeping them close to heart when they’re plainly not healthy for you. And it’s not about who you think are great people, but it’s about surrounding yourself with people who mirror your best self.

Over the past few years, I’ve had people either come into my life, or otherwise return back into my life, who I knew right off were there to teach me something, make me better, challenge me to rise up. People who are interested in achieving great things, unbound by thoughts of insecurity and “can’t.” I’m realizing what I am capable of achieving. Shedding old belief systems and labels, and meeting more people who don’t buy into either – I’m definitely smack dab in the middle of a soul pattern shift.

I feel like I’m making different decisions. Saying yes more, saying no more, not saying anything at all. Where I was once loud, I’m now quiet. I speak up where my silence used to rule. Questioning old habits and thought processes.

I’m more open than usual -- open-minded, open-hearted, open-ended. I finally understand and ACCEPT! that I don’t have all the answers. I’m relaxed with not knowing.

Little things that used to matter…don’t…anymore. You ask “what?” First and foremost? What other people think. You proceed knowing you need to be right with YOU and your family. You learn the difference between opinion and judgment. You consult your higher self. You know you know. You’ve just gotta trust what you know.

Scared. No, not so much. What scares me more is staying the same.

Song: Changes  Artist: David Bowie

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I am incredibly grateful for your comment! I will respond as soon as possible. XOXO, Mandi

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