Wednesday, July 25, 2012

age 1

reef,

i’ve started this letter to you a dozen times already.  each time, deleting my words and trying again.  i keep searching for words that don’t exist in this language.  or perhaps any language.  what i need to tell you can only be felt.  experienced.  and so i’m really struggling to get this down.

in a blink.  one year ago.  you were there.  in our arms.  with each passing day, each month since you arrived, we have fallen, or better yet, risen more deeply in love with you.  we are better versions of ourselves.  better parents to you and your siblings.  better partners to each other.  better people to the world.  because of the love you’ve poured over us.

thank you for making me new.

this is our anniversary, reef william.  your first year of life.  twelve months of giving us laughter and love and teachings and proud milestones.  and this is my first full year as this better woman.  i made mistakes but learned what you needed and when you needed it and how to rock you just right and what to say to get you to smile and a thousand other little things along the way.

your father and i have loved every single second that has passed since your birth.  we marvel in the joy that is you daily.

thank you for coming into my life,
mommy





Song: Dream  Artist: Priscilla Ahn

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2 comments:

  1. Love it Mandi- I've got journals for all 3 kids that I write in several times a year, birthdays, first day of school, last day of school etc. Print this out or make a written one. Someday Reef will gain so much from hearing how much you loved his little soul!

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  2. Kudos to you, Erin! I so wish I would have journaled more when Keegan and Bailey were small. Records of their innocent questions in the days of awe would be pure amusement this many years later -- my brain recalls only a handful of the events.

    Thank you for reading my blog and for the encouragement given!

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I am incredibly grateful for your comment! I will respond as soon as possible. XOXO, Mandi

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