Friday, April 1, 2011

BIRTHDAY

Some of my friends don’t like to acknowledge their birthdays. Well I am not one of those people. I love celebrating my birthday. Today is my birthday, yo!

There were several birthday wishes to “old friend” on my Facebook wall today. Are they referencing the digits in my age? Or could be as innocent as the number of years we’ve been friends? Given the history of my recent complaints, I sorta resemble "old." Pregnant and old.

For instance, there used to be space in my brain taken up by things like...uh...thoughts. Thinky thoughts. Like, sometimes I would think a thing. And then I would think something related to that thing. And then the things would string together, and before I realized it, I'd have an entire narrative in my head.

Then a tiny human being was conceived and suddenly it's like a significant portion of my brain has melted into him. I do not mean this romantically. (Especially because when I say "melt" I think "cheese.") What I mean is that I no longer have complete thoughts and I no longer speak in complete sentences and every blog post I try to write takes me 300 years because all focus is gone because anywhere from 25% - 55% of my brain has melted into a gooey mash of BABY!

You no longer have the luxury of "dwelling" on "thoughts." You can't remember lyrics to songs AND what day of the week it is AND what time that meeting is AND that your kid has been waiting 4 weeks for you to pick up his glasses.

Simply existing as a mother is hard, but carrying a child takes up space in your brain. Either that or I’m just getting old. Again, damn you, “old.”

Happy birthday to me!

1 comment:

  1. Happy Birthday to you!!! I hope you have had fun celebrating!! Oh, and I still have not gotten my brain back since having a baby so good luck with that! However, I do enjoy being inside your brain when I read your blog...your thoughts are very entertaining!! : )

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I am incredibly grateful for your comment! I will respond as soon as possible. XOXO, Mandi

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